Deja Vu

Hannah has been on my mind a lot recently and Saturday was filled with reminders of the life Hannah had.

After working in the yard as a family, Rachel saw my bike with her seat in the back and wanted a ride. Since Nathan was home and Rebekah was sleeping, we went on a bike ride.  My bike was in the shed so I brought it to the garage so I could find my helmet. I got Hannah's...well now Rachel's panda helmet for her. Then Rachel saw the red trike and wanted to go on it which was most recently rode by Hannah.

I told Rachel that she asked to ride on my bike and showed her the baby seat we have. We had a lot of fun and I went around one block with Robert and then took Hailey around another block. Getting the bikes out was a little sad because it's time to move everyone up a bike. I need to get Hailey a new bike, Robert would get Hailey's old one, and Hannah would have gotten the rocket bike.  She loved her trike and seemed to pick it up easily so I always wondered how fast she would figure out a big bike.

 Later in the afternoon, I took the kids to Washington Park. Rachel is a monkey and just climbs as high as she can go and sometimes gets stuck. Hannah had the same lack of free and when she was two she would just walk off the platforms.  Eventually Rachel found the swings and stayed their for 20+ minutes. While I was pushing Rachel and carrying Rebekah in the front pack, Rachel started singing a Dora song "Hola, Hola Hello, Hello It's time to go go go!"

When we first moved to Laramie, I took Hannah to the same park and pushed her in the swing while carrying Rachel in the backpack. We were working on Hannah's vocab and would make different sounds to each other. Hannah and I started singing "Yo ho ho! Ye he he" back and forth to each which also came from a Dora episode.

I enjoy watching Rachel going through the same activities that Hannah did especially since their personalities are similar. I am also curious about what new skills Hannah would have achieved by know at 4 1/2 years old. I look forward to the time that I will get that chance instead of dwelling on missed opportunities by a shortened life.

I ended my Saturday at Walmart picking out a pretty pink bouquet to put at her grave sight when we go together after church to visit Little Miss Hannah.